Metamorphosis: A Look at my Life.

I started this blog in August 2009, just after my 24th birthday. I was in the middle of a deep, hard look within, trying to figure out who I was and where I belonged. I began this blog as a means of self expression. I just wanted to be sort of anonymous and put my feelings out in the world. I would post photos I had taken and a bit of dark prose reflecting what I was going through at the moment. Since then I have really grown into myself. I have learned to accept myself, the good, the bad and the ugly. The internal friction has subsided. A lot of things fell into place for me when I quit my job and decided to focus on writing. Around that time my need to post my ramblings on here dwindled. I had a focused arena for my thirst of self expression through my story telling. My blog shifted to be more about pretty things I admired, films I felt the need to share, delicious treats I had made, songs I couldn't get enough of...

Since that August of 2009 I have a had an array of misadventures, travelled to Vietnam, Singapore, London, Paris, India, Greece and other places within the US. 
I met my soul mate, Daniel. We became engaged, then married and now have a daughter, who is nearly a year old. I have gone from girl, to woman, to wife, to mother. I am so grateful to have this blog to be able to time travel through my continuing metamorphosis. Each post taking me to a different moment in time, a smell, a taste, a feeling, a soundtrack to go along. It's a real treasure to have this little place to reflect, to document, to share. 

That struggling, depressed 24 year old me had no idea what the next six years would hold. So many missteps, trials, growing pains, so much love, beauty and adventure. I am really proud of who I have become. I owe so much of that to Daniel. He came into my life and turned the whole thing upside down in the best way possible. Even to this day he is a constant reminder of what is really important in life. For the last five years we have been on this journey together. He inspires me to be my best self. He encourages me to follow my dream and continue writing. Together we are raising the most incredible little girl. Back in 2009 I couldn't have imagined the treasures that would unfold and how truly wonderful my life would be. 

I, now sit here in 2015, Wren 10.5 months old playing at my feet, and I am sure I have no idea of the amazing journey that lays ahead of me now. 

//Above Image - Circa 2011//






Oh life, you couldn't be more beautiful, mystifying and inspiring. 
It is truly an honor to be on this path. 

  1. "He who looks outside dreams, he who looks inside awakens...."-Carl Jung
    All of the answers are already built inside us.


The Big Move.

So much has been going on. It has taken me forever to finally get to updating this blog. If you haven't already heard, Daniel, Wren and I (the cats too) have moved to Boston. We have been here for two months now. I still remember being in the car driving to Topanga Canyon and Daniel and I made a list of Pros and Cons for both L.A. and Boston. We talked it over and basically decided right there to roll the dice and move the whole gang across the country. The idea had been marinating with us for a while and finally that day something clicked. We were ready. We are both adventurous spirits and determined to say the least. As we moved forward, I defininitely had some concerns. For one thing, I have lived my whole life in California, and I wasn't sure how I would feel in New England.

We came out for two weeks, which turned into three weeks, to find a place to live and make sure Daniel would be happy with his new job. Daniel went to work while Wren and I explored the different neighborhoods trying to find the right fit. The housing market in Boston is insanely competitive to buy or to rent. A lot of places we liked fell through, the process was a roller coaster of emotion to say the least. But somehow we ended up with landing our first choice, deciding that Jamaica Plain would be our new home.

Back in L.A. we got down to business. We shipped our car, packed all of our belongings on a truck and hopped on a plane, a baby and two cats in tow, and my mom to help. With so many wheels in motion, it was a little nerve wracking. I may have had a little breakdown the night before our flight. But everything could not have gone smoother. We have been insanely fortunate to have had everything come together on the other side of the continent without a hitch.

We are now all settled in, have our new routine, and are really getting the hang of this new life. Boston is such a gorgeous city to be a part of. It's wonderful to be surrounded by so much history and nature. There are parks, ponds, rivers and trees everywhere. So many museums to explore. We can walk to the T (the train/metro) and take it to so many lovely places across the city. We walk to Whole Foods nearly everyday. Our home is beautiful and quiet, ideal for a 10 month old. Our cats love all of the windows to perch in and nooks to hide in. We have so many loved ones nearby. I'm so excited for Wren to be close to her cousins. And so far I haven't had that homesick feeling for L.A. Although ask me again when winter comes. I don't think things could be going better for us here in Boston. Hopefully things will continue in our favor. Now I just got to work on making some new friends. 
And California, you will always have a place in my heart.


Wren in the Park.

It's so lovely going on little family adventures on the weekend. Our little Wren seems to have an innate love for nature. She absolutely loves to watch leaves dance in the breeze, birds flying and loves to explore grass with her tiny hands. We try to get her out to a park or take her on a hike as often as we can. She's such a delight. We took her to the park last weekend. It was a blazing hot day here in L.A. my apologies to those of you on the East Coast covered in snow. She loved wiggling around in her diaper and sun hat. Meanwhile Daniel and I were sweating and wishing we could take our pants off too. haha. I'm sure this will end up being Part 1 of about a million more "Wren in the Park" posts. 

Happy Hump Day!


My Postpartum Must Haves // Preserving My Style.

First off I want to say THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU for the out pour of support I received from the Postpartum // What No One Tells You post. It's so nice to be reminded that I am so not alone in this. I have gotten so many kind words and so much love and I appreciate it so much. It's really helped me stay motivated and keep positive.
I think a lot of women, myself included, find it so tempting to live in sweats and stay at home after having a baby. But it's important to get back out in the world. I always feel better after being outside. It's important to meet friends for lunch, run errands, go for a walk...just get back out there.
But as I have mentioned before, getting dressed and feeling good can be challenging for a new mother. I wanted to share some pieces that have been working for me and making me feel good postpartum. They have been so helpful in feeling confident and keeping me from meltdowns when I am getting ready. 

Faux Leather Legging. 
It's easy to wear leggings everyday. But it also gets boring and it's barely a step away from sweat pants. I need some variety and the luxurious finish of some faux leather spices it up. Spanx makes a great pair that holds you in and shaves off a few pounds. These are great because you can get spit up on them and they are easy to wash and you feel like you aren't living in leggings everyday. The faux leather makes me feel so much more stylish and put together than just plain old jersey. 

Romantic Tunic.
If you follow my blog it's no secret that Free People is my spirit brand, and lucky for me they make some great tunics. I love this Free People Retro Print Tunic. It really makes me feel like me but hides all the parts of me I am embarrassed about. I can also breastfeed really easily in the top. It's great layered under a leather jacket or sweater too. 

Oversized Button Down.
An oversized button down shirt is a must have for any new mom. This Chambray one from Madewell is a great option. It's comfortable, they come in a range of prints and styles, and provide easy access for breastfeeding. I usually enjoy wearing my husband's shirts but with my enlarged breasts and wider hips they just aren't fitting well. I recommend getting shirts made for women but in the 'boyfriend' fit. They accommodate a woman's figure but I still feel like I put on one of Daniel's shirts. 

Oversized Sweater.
I have been living in a thin, oversized, black sweater. I love the hemline on this one I found on Shopbop. I prefer a thin one because I tend to overheat. I can always layer it with a scarf or coat. It pairs well with faux leather leggings for a modern look. It makes me feel chic and sophisticated, which is a great success for anyone with an infant. 

Loose Maxi Dress.
I'm nowhere near wearing anything form fitting on the mid section. A loose fitting maxi dress like this  Free People Sophie Dress adds length to my stature and has a billowy silhouette without looking like a potato sack.  I am also a fan of the flirty slits and pockets.

Moto Ankle Boots.
Since being pregnant, I've sort of veered away from my usual sky high shoes. But I don't want to compromise all of my style for comfort. I've been sporting lots of boots. I love these Modern Vice Moto Handler Boots. The zippers add a bit of edge that keeps me from feeling like a frumpy mom. 

Natural Make Up
I've proclaimed my love of lipstick many times, but I love smooching on baby girl even more. I've been really into a "bare" look with just a touch of eyeliner. A sweep of eyeliner gives my face a little definition and doesn't take very long to apply. I've been loving Smashbox Limitless Long Wear Lip Gloss in Endless.  

Easy Hair. 
Most days I opt to throw on a fedora or beanie rather than deal with my hair. But I'm striving to do more simple half up dos and quick braids. I've also been into a glossy, shinier look. I've been loving Bumble and Bumble City Swept Finish

Stud Earrings.
I have been relying heavily on my accessories. I love jewelry. It's a big part of who I am. I don't feel like myself without it. I've had to make some compromises with my staple pieces. No more long necklaces and no more big, dangly earrings. At first I was bummed about the earrings but I've managed to find some amazing stud earrings, like these Delicate Rhinestone Ear Climbers from u/o. I think even once I can return to my dangly earrings I will occasionally opt for some of the studs, they've really grown on me. I've been wearing stacks of bracelets and piling on the rings, careful not too wear any big baubles that can scratch or get caught on my sweet baby. As long as I can rock some of my treasures and charms I still feel like my regular old self. 

I'm working my way back to jeans and form fitting silhouettes but until then these finds are really getting me by. It's been tricky finding the balance of being a mama and staying true to myself. I feel like I'm getting into that sweet spot to eventually get my groove back.